My life has been in this constant transition ever since I have moved to California. It’s almost bizarre in a way. Everything in my life has just been up in the air. Bridges have been burned and new ones have been built. I do things the way I do them not intending to hurt people. But, because I don’t want to hurt people. When I came to Los Angeles I had not spoken to anyone in my family for years. Things have definitely changed with me… Maybe it’s for the better… Maybe it’s not… But, I am genuinely content right now with my life for the most part. On that note, you now know what it is that I have been doing… Which is a whole lot of soul searching and life skill building… Also working 70 hours a week. Which reminds me. I need to get a second job.  I started cutting out a lot of people from my life/mind recently because I had to in order to heal and grow. I’m sure they won’t understand.. Or maybe they will… It’s not my problem anymore. Friday night.. what am I doing? Laundry. Talk to you guys soon hopefully. I miss you all. xoxox

I went on a date the other day. . . the boys name was Jordan. He was tall and charming. He had a southern type of accent. He had magnetic eyes. He kissed with a strong passionate kiss that is nothing like most of the people in Los Angeles with their empty brains and hearts.

He’s a nice boy. He smells good. He, however, hogs the bed and steals all of my blankets. But, I guess the fact that he fucks the shit out of my pussy and doesn’t go limp when he’s drunk is a bonus. He even called me for a second date the day after…. and again tomorrow. So, I guess that’s a bonus. I like him because he doesn’t have drama. He’s simple. He’s cute. I like that when we are talking and we can stop talking and just stare and each other and smile and laugh. Man, I’m kind of horny now. . . I have to go to bed now. I have to be up at 6 am to go to the gym because I didn’t get out of work until late today and I’m exhausted.

xoxox

MM

So it’s Sunday. I know I was supposed to write you an entry a while ago. I just get caught up in doing nothing that involves sitting by my computer and writing out an entry. I found out earlier this week one of our properties at work had 2 pit bulls locked in this brick enclosure that had been there for weeks. I spent a good deal of my day trying to find a rescue to get the dogs out of the enclosure and to a safe home. nice people (team keller williams.) and they showed up and the dogs were gone Special thanks to Alli at A dogs life rescue Their Website. Everyone who donates to a dogs life rescue over 15 dollars I will personally send you an autographed 8×10 with a special message. Because animal rights are just THAT important to me.

I suspect the dogs have been in there for weeks. It’s sad. Look at how skinny that dog is. My friend and co worker Bam and David went to the property and fed the dogs and gave them water before they came up missing.

I cannot fathom how someone could leave two defenseless animals inside of a brick enclosure in the back of a home like this. They might as well have just let them out on the streets at least then they would have a better chance of surviving off of garbage then surviving off of nothing in this enclosure.

This is the front of the thing they trapped the dogs in.

Thinking about the things people do to animals makes me  ill. I hope that whomever is responsible for this gets locked into a small room for 4-6 weeks with no food or water and rots there. On Friday one of our properties had squatters in it so I spent most of the day finding legal loop holes to get these idiots out of the house. I finally found one. I could go to the property with police and make a citizens arrest based on trespassing and then while they are trying to get bailed out I could send one of the guys to the property to go board up the entire house so NO ONE can enter it until close of escrow. It would be up to the district attorney if they wanted to actually press charges but that isn’t my concern. My concern is getting these fuckers out of the house long enough to make sure no one can enter it. Now you know what I will be doing on Monday morning. I’ll be sure to take a video. These assholes have been getting on my god damn nerves. This man is living in the house with 2 other people on probation and him out on parole. No offense but I asked him nicely to leave. Now these idiots are about to get in trouble for violating probation and parole… Not my problem.. I told him not to fuck with me. People have been making a living off of becoming professional squatters in foreclosed properties which is total bullshit. Basically the banks do not want to have to go through eviction processes so they will pay these people cash for the keys to get out of the house. Sometimes up to 15 thousand dollars. It’s ridiculous. Luckily I happen to be smart and I find legal loop holes all the time Sucks for them. On a lighter note. I live behind a foreclosed bank owned mansion and I’m thinking about moving a mattress in there and hanging up curtains to get some cash for keys. They’ll never know I don’t REALLY sleep there. I’ll just escape out the back to my real home and collect that 15 grand. No big deal. Why the hell not. Every one else is doing it. A bank might as well pay me for putting up with all of the other squatters bullshit right? I could use the 15 grand anyways. Those assholes shit up my entire Friday back and forth between LA and Pacoima I went all day. Then those gangster ass mother fuckers started taking pictures of me standing outside of the house telling me they are going to find me? Mother fucker you find my ass and you’ll see what happens when a girl with daddy issues and anger problems gets pissed. I DARE YOU. I have a bat next to my bed with your skulls name on it. So anyways. I’m pretty enraged about this asshole who left these dogs in the property. I think something needs to be done to teach these people a lesson. This is something that should just not be done. People get in more trouble in America soliciting a prostitute then killing animals and that’s fucking bullshit. At least with a prostitute it’s 2 consensual adults not harming anyone. This is a defenseless creature that is put in harms way. FUCKING BULL SHIT.

I did 8 miles on the elliptical yesterday and couldn’t sleep for shit. I’m not really sure how that happened or what exactly happened… but it kind of sucked. I hate not sleeping. It’s 11:34 now. I should stop avoiding doing my cardio and get ready for the gun show tomorrow when I show up to kick some Mexican gangsters out of my property and get their asses thrown in jail. Low life mother fuckers.

Hell hath no fury like an over worked under paid Madison Mitchell Scorned.

Let this be a lesson to all of you fuckers even thinking about moving into one of my properties or even leaving animals in there…

I will not rest until I get revenge.

Thank you that is all.

Mon 8 am – 6:35pm office then gym

Tuesday 7:55 am – 6:15pm then gym

Weds. 7:57 am – 7:30pm then gym

Thursday 8 am – 11:45pm then home

Friday 8am – 7 pm then home then did laundry

That is what I did this week. Entertaining isn’t it? Sunday I get to go to one of our properties where I am going to perform a citizens arrest on trespassers on our property. I am going to make videos with my phone the whole time

I’m tired as shit and tomorrow I am going to write you a blog entry about people who had their house foreclosed on and left 2 dogs in the garage for 6 weeks with nothing. . . . Until then I will leave you with suspense as to the outcome.

Random thought for the night:

When I grow up I hope to be so respected for my Academy Award-winning films that the French government will help me evade child rape charges for over 30 years.

xoxox

MM

Hey guys how are you? It’s Sunday. I can be completely honest and say that I have done absolutely nothing all weekend. I had to see a dermatologist this week and he gave me Retin A for my face. I’ve had snake face for like 3 days. It’s kind of gross. My skin is so tight. I feel like I got a face lift. It also was burning for like 2 days. It felt like I had a horrible sunburn on my face. It feels like today it’s improved a little. I’ve been soaking my face in jojoba oil. I have also been using a vitamin a,e and d cream cleanser.  The first day my face would burn with any cleanser on it. But, today it seemed out. I can say that I love jojoba oil though. It may be my new moisturizer. Since Friday I stayed in and watched every episode of True Blood season 2 on demand. I didn’t have cable at my old place. So I missed every episode. I did however catch every episode of True Blood season 1 last year because I had cable at my old place in Michigan. Season 2 got really stupid with that Mary Anne orgy lady. But, the parts with the vampires was sweet. I have this amazing crush on Godric and Eric.

LOVE YOU! XOXOX

I woke up today at 1 pm. Honestly, I can’t even remember the last time I slept that late. Maybe when I was coming off of drugs. I did a lot of things I never used to do when I came off of drugs. I have to go back to work tomorrow and I still feel like I have more things to do and I need a longer weekend. I don’t know what I would do without work. I feel exhausted. My face hurts. I’m glad it doesn’t hurt as bad as it did yesterday. I was video chatting with my friend Daniel yesterday and I had to keep putting a cold wet wash cloth on my face that I had put in the refrigerator. Last night around midnight my friend Joshua called me and asked me to come over. I thought something was wrong. I have a close relationship with Joshua I love him more than any man I know. I rushed over to his house in pajamas at midnight. He was so drunk. I have never seen anyone that drunk before. He babbled to me about things that made no sense. He told me that he can’t take me seriously but that he loves me more than anyone he knows. I wanted so badly to spill out all of my emotions towards him. Unfortunately for me I am better at hiding my feelings then showing them. I can thank my family for that because I was always told its unbecoming of me to cry and show a man how I feel. I sat there and held him in my arms while he babbled. Ahhhh alcohol. People wonder why I never drink. I already have ENOUGH rumors going on about how nuts I am I don’t need to do stuff without remembering.

Aidan seems to be wandering around my house staring at things. He seems lethargic today. I’d really like to get him a friend. But, I know I cannot afford one. It would be foolish of me to do that. I feel so bad for him. He looks lonely. Ever since we left Tiny William in Detroit he has lacked his certain pizazz he used to have.

Today, Sunday, I was supposed to go on a date with this boy from Okcupid. He was really adorable. His smile seemed like one of those smiles that could light up a room. In his photos I could see he had very kind eyes. Last night at like 3 am he randomly signed on. I teasingly said to him, “Hey why are you up?” in so many words. He proceeded to unleash an emotional bukkake of despair telling me that he didn’t want to spend the whole day with me and that he’s afraid because I used to be in porn and because I have some stalker bitch who does anything to get my attention. Which for the record we were talking about something with stalkers and 4chan and I told him about her. Which is like whatever it was funny to me not like traumatizing. He kind of freaked out and since I really didn’t want to deal with another man in my life that I let in and then tells me because I made a few pornos it scares the shit out of them I just shut my computer and walked away. It’s like … Who the fuck do you think you are judging me? I have a perfectly normal life just like any of you. I work. I come home. I play with my cat. I go to the gym. Hey, I even get my car fixed on my day off of work. I see a dermatologist just like a normal person. I eat dinner at my kitchen table. I can cook. WHAT THE FUCK IS SO FUCKING WRONG WITH ME. I wish I could throw my head into a wall. I am so frustrated with men. I’m not even looking for anything I just want to meet someone. Even if they are a friend. I don’t care. This is not me reaching out to any of you asking you to write me countless emails proposing we go on dates or be friends. I can assure you that will never happen. This is me venting. Anyways, I’m going to get going. I need to stop ranting. I haven’t taken any photos of my snake face sorry. Soon though.

Love you xoxox,

MM

So it’s like Thursday and I pretty much have done nothing but live inside of my office. Which trust me.. In a recession I am ALRIGHT WITH THAT. Although I have yet to get a paycheck and I’m not sure what’s going on. . . I recently moved into a guest house of a house. It sucks because I hate changing things. But, in the same sense this is a better situation that I have going on… I’m pretty stoked on my air conditioning. . . and cable. Today is Thursday which means that It’s Always Sunny is on. I’m pretty excited because its the new season and I love Charlie Day. Things have been okay. I haven’t been to the gym lately. But, I have been watching what I eat. Monday I am going to start back at the gym since my back seems to be a lot better now. Woo Hoo.  I am exhausted guys. I really need to get going. Hopefully this weekend I’ll be able to catch up

xoxox

MM

I feel like nothing is going right in my life lately. It’s annoying. I have the flu or something right now. I have a dr’s appt in the morning. I had some chicken soup today and I threw it up. It was awful. I’m all bummed out and depressed. Oh well. I swear I’ll get out of this funk. . . Or maybe I won’t. Who knows.

I don’t feel like writing much of anything because I’m sicker than shit.

Rest assure this is where I will be all night long..

If you need a diagram on what is happening with me now… This is for you.

HALP!

MM

I’m moving tomorrow. Sorry for the lack of updates I’ve just been knee deep in a shitted up mind. I swear I’ll be back up and running next week. Love you guys! xoxox

All I can think about is escrow’s and numbers and REO properties and banks.. sorry.. I have nothing to say.

That’s me going to work yesterday morning. Woo hoo. Kthx good night. 11 hour work day.. DONE.. now onto tomorrow’s 11 hour work day.